i don’t want a new diagnosis, I just wanna die
i keep telling myself "it cant get worse than this," and then it does
im a big wreck. cant remember to do anything, including eating and sleeping.
feeling alone, drowning in bias, what if i’m biased
what if i’m always lying?!

go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed
go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed

intense mood swings. “mild bipolar I”
high-functioning, tried to ignore it. cognitive dissonance.
questioning my every move. irrationality, abuse issues.
kinda want cishet boys to be comfortable being friends with me
but i also need queer kids in my life or else i'll go crazy
and sometimes it seems
like you cant have both

go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed
go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed

how can i write all of this stuff out
thinking about protecting her, thinking about personal protection
i’m shivering and i need sleep but everything sucks
im trans but i dont look trans at all anymore
but please laugh at my jokes anyways!
please clap
please clap

go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed
go to bed go to bed go to bed to go to bed go to bed

people like me better when i acknowledge my faults.
need to be conscious of that. how does a bully become a lover
my interpersonal relationships are shitty yet relatable
sometimes i need to pick out every detail in my life story
i need to go to sleep because this won’t end
please sleep
please sleep

pleeeease sleep.