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Heartache With A Hammer
02:19
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good morning baltimore
its five o clock
i think I’m falling in love again
and i wish it would stop
good morning baltimore
i just got home
i know you're with me
but i'm on my own
and if you need to teach me something
just let me know
cause this is killing me
oh so slow
& if the world came crashing down
on us tmrw
i'm not sure anymore
about the words that i would swallow
good morning baltimore
it's six am
i know i'm in love with them
i wish it would end
good morning baltimore
it's hard to say
but sometimes the one you love
won't feel the same way
good morning baltimore
just let me know
if its not too much to ask
please let me go
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today i broke my own heart
and my vibrator died
i got 20 cans of PBR
and a lot on my mind
you told me that you loved me
but you can’t commit
i said okay i’ll just leave
but i don’t fucking get it
i just can’t make it work these days
and i know there’s just some things you’ll never say
and maybe my sadness is mostly me
my shitty brain chemistry
this summer’s gonna kill me
spread my corpse on the concrete
this summer’s gonna thread it’s fingers through my hair
and rip my fucking scalp out
and if you want to see me,
come to 201 east north
i’ll be in the back of the building,
trying to fucking numb all these feelings
with 15 fucking beers
and a shot of testosterone
i don’t want to know you’re kissing them
but i don’t want to be alone
this summer’s gonna kill me
spread my corpse on the concrete
this summer’s gonna wrap it’s hands around my throat and strangle me
like did you even know me?
or did you even want to?
or did you just project this fucking fantasy of
someone else straight onto me
i don’t think you miss me
i regret everything
i don’t think you care about me
and i’m fucking done
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3. |
Bonkers Person Disorder
01:52
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You come over and talk to me like
you don’t know what i am
you come over and we mess around
and ruin all of my plans
But I’m bonkers, baby, crazy
I’m not cut out for this kind of thing
I get too attached, I get too hung up
and i’m always thinking the same thing:
Will you ghost me?
And how long will you stay?
Will I ruin this somehow?
Will this just last for today?
Well, you come over and smile at me
and you look so so cute!
You stand by window, naaaaked
Ask me my greatest fear
Well just maybe I’ll let you ruin my life
but i hope I don’t ruin yours too
I want to say, do you like me?
do you want to be here at all?
Would you cry if I fucking died?
Shit didn’t mean to say that...
Anyhow, I’m bonkers, baby, crazy
I’m not cut out for this kind of thing
I get too attached, I get too hung up
and i’m always thinking the same thing:
Will you ghost me?
And how long will you stay?
Will I ruin this somehow?
Will this just last for today?
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Lavender Street
01:40
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lavender street
please don’t forget me
i thought i heard you say
as you walked away
well i can’t believe
who i’ve become
i can’t attach to
anyone
i used to be
obsessively wanting
obsessively waiting
obsessively dating
now i leave you on read
and get back in bed
and swallow my shame
swallow my pain
my heart is a clock
that wouldn’t stop going off
i trapped it in a plastic pokeball
now it’s within closet walls
of my childhood room
it’s never too soon
to close yourself off
keep it on lock
what do i want?
that i can’t get from you
well, swallow my shame
swallow this pain
and leave you on read
just go back to bed
and sleep it away
been sleeping all day~
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5. |
Gone Wild
02:00
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kill time getting stoned and doing nothing
i know you said you care but you were bluffing
i guess im just a little bit more out of control
your friends all fit in boxes and im an animal
so ill live in the woods
you tell me youd come see me if you could
we would play pretend, close our eyes
you tell yourself that i dont wanna die
but i wont do anything, i cant do anything
im too wild to be hospitalized again this year
so ill live in the woods
you tell me youd come see me if you could
but you're the one to get over it
that having no friends is just my fault
still got my big handful of lovers
seems i cant know anyone without wanting them under my covers
ill live in the woods
you tell me youd come see me if you could
and if we were to talk, what could i say?
if you said "how are you," id lie and say im okay
but would i even want you there? would i want anyone there?
or am i better off on my own?
so ill live in the woods
i dont think youd come see me even if you could
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Gasoline
01:19
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bring me your whiskey, bring me your wine
lately it seems like i don't have much time
so kill me this winter, kill me july
kiss me and kill me and cover me kind
you are a blessing in sheets
youre a fucking nightmare in streets
i have these incendiary thoughts
and you are gasoline
each night is kind of like pulling teeth
a perfect composition for my hollow peach
an empty shell to crawl into
just waiting to burn me with my own heat
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Rocket
01:04
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i got a big jar of pennies for your thots
i got a big jar of pennies for your thots
got a deep laugh and i won’t stop it
got a full rocket in my pocket
of my baby blue jeans, soft and wonderful
i got a big jar of pennies for your thots
i got a big jar of pennies for your thots
and i’m gonna tie you down and force you to tell me what you want!
i got a big jar of pennies for your thots
i got a heart attack of things i wanna say,
but i’d just rather listen today.
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8. |
Pronouns Song
01:07
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well you tell me i cannot, and then i will
you buy all the food, and i want to foot the bill
unreachable aspiration of a stable career
of a college graduation, or a non-shitty beer
tell me who to vote for one more time
well i’m reading the books, or at least i see all the signs
may the bridges i burn
light the way
and may all my friends gain the strength
to never run away
at least once a hour, i think everything’s wrong
we all need more sleep and more songs
don’t give me unsolicited skincare routines
oh i know it’s just the rain cloud that follows me around
that capitalist ridiculous neoliberal bullshit crown
whatever, i did look so much better walking out your door
than i did
when i walked in
so may the bridges i burn
light the way
and may all my friends gain the strength
to never run away
things are tough and they continue to get tougher
school is rough, someday it’ll be over
art is hard... can we put a dollar amount to how much we suffer?
i know it’s hard to open your eyes to the truth
i just escape when i need to, pretend its an endless summer
so may the bridges i burn
light the way
and may all my friends gain the strength
to never run away
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10. |
The End of Ghost World
01:53
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i keep the having the same dream over and over
and imagining that i'm wrong about you and me
i can't imagine it ending now and
being without you somehow but
sometimes i want to sleep forever
sometimes i want to walk out my door
and never look back
like the end of Ghost World
sugar coated teeth, southern comfort, stomach acid
need liquid relief for another night spent passive
don't want to go to work, on anything
i don’t really want to be here anymore
sometimes i want to sleep forever
sometimes i want to walk out my door
and never look back
like the end of Ghost World
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soak my booo-oones in the chaos
read my boo-ooooks or i’ll just buy some
and i’ll never read what you’ll never see
and i’ll never read and you’ll never see
buy my boooooook, i haven’t written it yet
buy my aaaaart, i haven’t made it yet
buy my work, let me live, let ‘em work, let ‘em live
i haven’t made it yet
i haven’t done it yet
i’ve never worked a job
i’ve been out wondering
i’ve been out wandering
i’ve been out wondering
i’ve been out wandering
so let me graduate, i just applied
let me graduate, i just got in
i have one page written out, i haven’t done it yet
i have one page out of fifty thousand million
it’s the only one i want, it’s the only one i need
it’s some fucking poetry about you and me
let me graduate, i haven’t started yet
get me a job, i haven’t got one yet
get me a life, i haven’t got one yet
get me a life, i’ve never met anyone
i’ve never known anyone the way they know me
i’ve never seen anyone the way i let you see me
have i been listening?
have i been listening?
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12. |
Charm City (demo)
03:20
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these are not my streets
this is not my town
i root for the hometeam
i just live on your ground
i try ethical consumption
till i just feel like a clown
down to fight or flight or freeze or fawn
or charm and charm and charm till dawn
it’s the charm city, baby, try to sing along ;)
i’m not going to the southwest
Palestine, or anywhere at all
my hometown is incredibly expensive
and i just don’t know where i belong
a nomadic existence, wherever we end up, what’s the name of this song?
down to fight or flight or freeze or fawn
or charm and charm and charm and charm
it’s the charm city, baby, better sing along ;)
try to throw yourself off a bridge
try to live in someone else’s ditch
try to work something out
try to be a big kid
but you know how it ends
we all die alone
if they put a word on your back
you’ll end up calling it home
down to fight or flight or freeze or fawn
or charm and charm and charm and charm
it’s the charm city, baby, better sing along ;)
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Third Person (demo)
04:23
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Diamonds (Joan Baez)
03:46
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Hardly Flesh Baltimore, Maryland
he/they art student and singer-songwriter, babey. contains multitudes.
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Ezra Furman is one of the top artists I connect to personally as a trans jewish leftist and artist. This album is all nudes and some of them look remarkably close to mine. Every track is a banger!
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If you like my music, you'll like this! Jules is a pal and an extremely talented musician. They're really empathetic and passionate about music, and I think this album of theirs shows that the best.
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Would I be making music w/o Jeff's work, ethics, values, and fucking banger tunes? As people, Jeff Rosenstock, Sean Bonnette, and John Darnielle are each extreme inspo, but this one... is free.... <3
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