1. |
hungry pt 1
02:29
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my true love is dead and gone, dead and gone to me
and i’ve been sleeping all day long, all day long it seems
cause i have no friends, have no soul, im a dead end, throw me away
throw me away
i will leave you for no reason
and youre going to break
but it’s all because i have bad thoughts
in my cloudy head
whenever i am awake
just come over so i can be with you
come over so i’ll have something to do
and i’m not in love with you
my true love is dead and gone, dead and gone to me
and i’ve been sleeping all day long, all day long
cause i have no friends, have no soul, im a dead end, throw me away
throw me away
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2. |
i hate [REDACTED]
01:43
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at least my solo work’s better than yours
here’s to honest music in common chords
i started crying on the train to grand central
about your dumb songs and the familiar smell of metro north
and clementine vodka and words i wish i never said
and ways i wish i never felt towards you
fumbling around with your dumb friend and me
like a bad porn movie
he said “in the morning, you’ll be
mine”
well we fucked alone when your friend fell asleep
and i remember it so vividly, when you said it was nothing personal
a week later i hear you’re seeing somebody and i hope she makes you happy
i hope you’re fucking happy now
but sad boys like you never are
sad boys like you just like to play bass guitar
fucking around with your merch guy and me
like a really awful porn movie
he whispered, “in the morning, you’ll be
mine”
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3. |
yr worth it
01:43
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looking in your eyes i know we have a shot
of making it to the top
of making it to the rock
swinging our lives away
but looking in your eyes i know that there's a chance
we could end in heartbreak and pain
we could go right down the drain
but isnt it woooooorth it
to know that we could someday make it
peeeeerrrrrrrrrfect
well you bet your ass i'm in it to the end
and im just as scared as the day is long
yeah im scared as shit
of commitment
but here we are
tell me that one day we're gonna have it all
tell me one day you'll fall
and one day i'll fall
and someday it'll fucking end
but isnt it woooooorth it
to know that we could someday make it
peeeeerrrrrrrrrfect
well you bet your ass i'm in it to the end
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4. |
self-titled song
02:33
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a few weeks ago i left your batman panties in basil hayden's bed
he went to mica a long time ago, i met him on craigslist
and i promise this is the last song i'll write that mentions u, you know you are the skin i shed
i left a white heart shaped tunnel in his bed as well
part of me wore it to remind me of a boy. who? i'll never tell
he's got a girlfriend, and for fucking with him, you know i'll go to hell
a few nights ago i snorted xanax and dexedrine and bopped straight to work
sang “waving thru a window” using my lyft’s aux cord on the way there
he said i had a nice voice. well im trying
spent the summer of 2017
in twenty pairs of arms, before midnight
that’s only cuz, i’ve got work, starting at midnight
part of me wants to try monogamy so baaaadly
another part of me likes occasionally doing hard drugs for free…
that’s fucked up. sorry, mom. sorry, dr. psychiatrist.
i love u both but u can catch me doin risky things like its eaaasy
i’m gonna die and nobody will have heard my name
because i’m hardly made of flesh and my life is a big fucking game
you can sleep on the couch while i snore in your bed
I don't care, i don't care anymore
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5. |
my brother's gun
02:40
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i put my spotify on private; listen to every hallelujah
i put my heart on hold to think about you
because it's cold and it's broken and it’s raining in baltimore too
but i belong here, i don’t belong with you
sometimes i think ive been loved enough for a lifetime
sometimes i think my life isn't big enough for two
but at some point it was big enough for the both of us
at some point, i was in love with you
i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given
you always hated the phrase "making love" but that’s okay
i know i'll feel the holy dove with someone new
you say you wanna update each other on how we're doing
but really you just want to brag
because ive been having trouble getting out of bed
and youre still the one who can really make me sad
now you tell me you’re with someone else and i hope you’ve found it
the one to scratch you in all the right places
the one you can truly forget me with
i hope i never see you again
i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given
see every day is just between my first and my last
and every night just reminds me of my past
but every morning i wake up and believe
it won’t happen again, it won’t happen to me
i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given
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6. |
strange wave
02:12
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we do the same few faces in our snaps,
like every fucking time
i close my eyes and i smile real big
you stick your tongue out and shiiiiine
or i make my goddamn puppy eyes
or you pull yr lower lip a little bit
tell your girlfriend what we're doing
tell your best friend i kinda miss him, okay?
i don't know if you want attention
or if you really want to die
either way, when you come to me,
you know i always have the time
i'd like to be in your bed sometime
i'd like to just be with you, just lay
and lay and lie… we already do that
tell your girlfriend what we're saying
tell your best friend i kinda miss him
tell your girlfriend about our picture
tell your best friend i kinda miss him, okayyy
i kinda miss him
i kinda miss him
i’m on a strange wave
i’m on a strange wave, baby
i’m on a strange wave
i’m on a strange wave, daddy
i dream about the both of you sometimes
never at the same time, of course
i’d love you to have you at the same time, of course
insert the speak-no-evil monkey emoji here
I kinda wanna fuck your boy like we used to
but believe me, i wanna fuck you too
tell your girlfriend what we're doing
tell your best friend i kinda miss him, okay?
i kinda miss him
i’m on a strange wave
it’s in a strange way
i’m on a strange wave
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7. |
crushed
01:43
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I look at your snaps
for more than 10 seconds
and when i think about you ay night
i practically lose my mind
i know we just met
but i cant stop myself
i think its looking pretty nice
i want this for all of fucking time
the two of us in a little world of our own
me sittin by the phone
you're probably out with your friends
but i dont mind, i dont mind
i am here when you want me
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doooo
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doooo
i know we've got time
we're only eighteen
i know all your signs
i know what they mean
it's such a rush
feeling this way
so easy to get let down
when it goes away
but sometimes it stays!
for a little while
or a long, long while
you make me smile!
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doooo
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo doooo
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8. |
a night spent alone
02:25
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i get makeup on your shirt
i get makeup on your cheek
no nights spent alone
no nights spent alone
i let you tie me to the bed
i let you get inside my head
no nights spent alone
no nights spent alone
i mean it’s almost every night
another boy, another internal fight
but no nights spent alone
no nights spent alone
my songs are too honest
all that’s in my trash are clementine peels and used condoms
clementine peels and used condoms
no nights spent alone
no nights spent alone
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