i put my spotify on private; listen to every hallelujah
i put my heart on hold to think about you
because it's cold and it's broken and it’s raining in baltimore too
but i belong here, i don’t belong with you

sometimes i think ive been loved enough for a lifetime
sometimes i think my life isn't big enough for two
but at some point it was big enough for the both of us
at some point, i was in love with you

i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given

you always hated the phrase "making love" but that’s okay
i know i'll feel the holy dove with someone new

you say you wanna update each other on how we're doing
but really you just want to brag
because ive been having trouble getting out of bed
and youre still the one who can really make me sad

now you tell me you’re with someone else and i hope you’ve found it
the one to scratch you in all the right places
the one you can truly forget me with
i hope i never see you again

i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given

see every day is just between my first and my last
and every night just reminds me of my past
but every morning i wake up and believe
it won’t happen again, it won’t happen to me

i’m sorry i didn’t tell you when I found my brother’s gun
i’m sorry if you ever felt like it was a competition
between you and the darkness inside of me
or between the love you gave and were given